Some Thoughts After Boston

Everyone has standards that they hold for themselves. We all have hopes, goals, and levels in life we wish to achieve. And I’ll be the first to admit that I can be a bit of an extremist. When I first started running, and I realized I was good at it, all I aimed to do was become better and faster. And in the end, it may have bit me in the ass. Now I’m nursing a rotten injury that has taken me out of my favorite sport for a yet unknown amount of time.

I have met many people on the interwebs though Facebook, Twitter and my blog. So many runners. And so many who just run…well…to run. I have always been in awe of them. They don’t care about placing or how fast they finish, or PR’s or anything like that. They just run.

Until I ran Boston, I never just “ran”. Boston gave me the opportunity to just run. And it was that woman on the bus to Athlete’s Village, whom I’ll never see again, and will never have the chance to thank for her amazing insight into running the Boston Marathon.

“You did all your hard work to qualify. Now, just enjoy the run!”

If I hadn’t gotten that advice just an hour or so before I got to the start line, I don’t think I would have appreciated Boston as much as I did. The fact of the matter is, once I looked around at the runners surrounding me, and then looked at the spectators surrounding us, I realized this race was as much for them as it was for us. And they just wanted us to acknowledge that they were there, taking time out of their lives to cheer us on. And it all came together for me somewhere around mile 3, when I heard someone yell, “No one is waving back. How come no one is waving back?”

From then on, I was waving. And I was thanking everyone. And they were thanking me. They were thanking me for running Boston. And it suddenly turned into my new mission…my new goal. I was determined to make it just as fun for the spectators as it was for me.

I’m pretty sure I did that…and it was so awesome. No, I didn’t BQ at Boston like I had hoped I would. But I had a hell of a great time. And there wasn’t a minute that I didn’t enjoy. Looking back, I’m so sorry I didn’t stop to take pictures along the way. I would have loved to get a photo with the lovely ladies who held my water cups for me while I pulled out my Energybits, or the guy I hugged, or the elderly couple who high fived me in Newton, or when I passed Team Hoyt at mile 16, or the child who handed me a bottle of water at mile 19, or the students at Boston College. Each and everyone of them helped me to reach my goal…and that was to finish the Boston Marathon.

For them, I am thankful.

Running Boston has taught me many things about myself. Here are just a few of them:

  • I’m not infallible.
  • I’m far more capable then I give myself credit for.
  • I’m way too hard on myself.
  • I inspire more people than I ever imagined.
  • I deserve to be proud. I deserve to be proud!

I’ve had an experience for which I’ll be forever grateful. And I thank – from the bottom of my heart – my mom and my sisters, for making the journey with me, the city, and the people of Boston, and those along that marathon route. They have changed me. They all deserve a medal.

When I returned home, my husband, who is not a runner, asked me…

“So, all this anxiety, all the money you spent on physical therapists, doctors, gym memberships…all the pain and the preparation, all the cost involved in making the trip, all the pain you are in right now. Was it worth it?”

Was it worth it? As a runner, I shouldn’t even be asked that question.

It was beyond worth it.

Because the one thing I can tell you for certain about Boston…they love their marathon.

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10 Responses to Some Thoughts After Boston

  1. Barb Hughes says:

    That is SO inspiring. I cannot run, but I can accomplish some of my goals before I close my last chapter! Thanks for the inspiration!

  2. azkricket says:

    Wonderful!

  3. David says:

    We do! Thanks for visiting and helping us take back our effing finish line!

  4. Wow…I had to choke back a sob reading this. Thank you for being so darn amazing. xoxo

  5. Awesome post! It is so worth it, and you rocked!

  6. Katie says:

    I too needed the reminder that it is okay to just run, without comparing myself to those that are better, faster, etc. Congrats on your journey, and I hope your injury heals soon!

  7. Diana says:

    Damn, I’ve got something in my eye…. =) Great post!

  8. WE are all too hard on ourselves and you do truly inspire so many others. Glad to “know” you. Keep it up.

  9. alex says:

    I hear you on the competitiveness. And I think it may have earned me a pelvis stress fracture, yay! I agree that boston was worth every drop of sweat, penny put in and stress it caused. One of the best days of my life. Hands down, no questions asked!!

  10. you are worth it! and stop being so hard on yourself. xox

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