A Labor Day of Lessons

It’s been a long summer. Although the calendar might not reflect it yet, it is safe to say that it is over. I have to admit, I took advantage of using it as an excuse NOT to blog. I just haven’t felt it. This, and getting my kids ready for high school was a bit more of a challenge than I expected it would be.

My running has progressed nicely. It wasn’t easy in the beginning and I questioned my ability to make a full comeback. I still do, actually, because I am not completely “pain free”. Every once in a while the familiar “twinge” that something isn’t quite right returns, in not just my left leg, but my right one as well. It is almost a phantom phenomenon…mocking me to dare to try too hard. I almost wonder if my age isn’t catching up with me now. And if my “superhero” status will become more of “I remember when…” moments.

I missed a few local running events that I would have loved to have participated in. But just this past week alone, I completed two which proved to me that I’m still good. In fact, I might be a little more than good because although I ran well, I felt good enough afterwards to know I could have run better. Perhaps I was smart not to push it.

And I’ve questioned my ability to tackle the Twin Cities Marathon in October, but after last weekend’s Women Rock Half Marathon, I can push that aside. I’ll be able to run it. And dare I say, I might just be able to pull off another BQ, God willing.

This was a long, gruesome year for me on so many levels. And it isn’t over. However, I consider September to be the start of my New Year. The kids go back to school. Suddenly, 8 hours of my day opens up. And I can return to work. I have been wanting to open my running coach business for months now, but the pressures of having the family gnawing at my ankles have prevented that. I’d love to get that going. I have products I’ve promised to review piling up in my office. I haven’t blogged in months. And certain personal issues have made me an emotional wreck. Anytime I have come into my office to write, I’ve gotten distracted by one or another, and the life force has gotten sucked out of me. I don’t want to share…or at least I don’t want to burden my readers with my petty problems.

Rest assured, I still will not…but I will fill you in on a few things that I’m looking to overcome in my “new year.”

I need to keep running.

I want to keep inspiring others to run or get themselves healthy.

I need to learn to breathe. 

I need to learn to lighten up.

My children (and step-children) are the lights in my life. If they aren’t happy, I’m not. All I wish for are happy children. I will help them find it.

I don’t like uncertainty. It has haunted me recently. I need to conquer it.

I need to take time to focus on my own mental health.

I need to congratulate myself more.

I need to be more assertive.

I need to stop taking things so damn seriously.

I need to stop wallowing in my own self-pity.

These are just a few things that pop into my brain as I sit here composing this blog post. It actually feels liberating to admit them. I’m feeling better already.

I’m mentally ready to return to my blog and fill you all in on my running, and my new healthy lifestyle. I have changed things around quite a bit. And I’m determined to do the same for the health and happiness of my family. It will be quite a battle, and if I want my children to grow up to be happy, healthy, successful beings, I’ll need to see it though. And I know it won’t be easy.

So sit back and enjoy the ride. Maybe we can help each other out in the next few months. It is time to open up to new ideas and new opportunities, and not be afraid to forge ahead.

Because quite honestly, there is no other direction to go.

2 Responses to A Labor Day of Lessons

  1. Bev says:

    Nice post Theresa. I have been thinking of you all summer. I know what body pain can do to you. It makes you wonder if you’ll ever be normal again. But, you will. Just don’t push it too much. Listen to your body. That’s what my doctor told me. We have pain for a reason and you can’t ignore it. As for all the other stuff, you’ll get through that too. As the saying goes, “This too shall pass.” Nothing is forever. Can’t wait to see you at the wedding!!!

  2. Ashleigh B. says:

    I’ve enjoyed witnessing your running comeback! You’re one awesome lady! I hope as this new year begins that the things that are bothering you will be smoothed over. Here’s to peace and tranquility and kicking ass on the road!

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